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  1. Oh Alison, thanks for sharing your truth. It hurts to read that you are going through something so difficult… I offer continued support and an ear if you ever need it. I’m also praying for continued recovery for you and yours. Sending my love from across the pond.x

  2. I am so sorry darling, I wish I had some wise words for you, but right now I just want to give you a big hug, you know where I am xxx

  3. Oh my dear Alison, my dearest, darling girl… there are few words that would mean anything, so I shall just repeat: you are very much loved, whether you are here or offline, writing or silent… we think of you, and we love you.
    xxx <3

  4. Dear One, I am so sorry for all the different pains you are having. It is remarkable, the words you find to describe it all. I hope you don’t mind my being presumptuous by asking, have asked your doctor (if not already) about
    endometriosis? My prayers are for you and your family, with much love from across the pond.

    1. Oh, Alison. My heart aches for you. I only have the slightest inkling of what you are dealing with but 8 weeks ago today we took our adult son to the E.R. and he was sent E.O.D. to a mental health facility. We are all so very fortunate. Medication, excellent counseling and determined effort on his part have effected a positive change beyond our expectations. There may very well be more challenges ahead but for now…peace and gratefulness. I pray Ste finds the same. I’m sending you love, light and virtual hugs.

  5. Alison, my prayers for all of you. Sometimes our strength comes directly from God – there is no other explanation that makes as much sense. You continue to inspire strength in all of us with your dreams and with your honesty. I think I can relate to your unwanted feelings of anger – for 37 years, I wanted to prove to my husband that he is/was loved and lovable. But he never believed me completely. Why couldn’t the man just listen to my words, my reasoning?? I got angry, he got angry and still he didn’t get it! Ultimately I learned nobody could MAKE him FEEL loved. Feelings belong to oneself. So I began just loving for love’s sake. When he accepted my love (in words, actions), it was wonderful, but I loved him all the time anyway and- I prayed for God to bless him with a whole heart.
    May God bless you, Alison, and May you feel the strength of thousands of hugs holding you up. Thank you for sharing yourself with us.

  6. So… one of my favorite things on the world, words… they simply don’t do their job in times like these. Sending you love, strength, joy, and wisdom… xx. Gayla

  7. I hurt for you and your family. I, too, have been through terrible pain in my life and have come to the conclusioin that life includes pain. Every hard thing I’ve been through has pressed me in to God. My trials have taught me things about Him that no one can take away from me. I pray this for you and yours. I encourage you to visit an Al-Anon meeting. Even if your love is not addicted, the principles of the program can help greatly with how to let go and let God . The 12 step approach has been a life-saver for me in dealing with other people’s problems. Thank you for your honesty and openness.

  8. Oh Alison! I am so sorry that you are needing to deal with all this. Thank you so much for sharing with us. I am holding you and yours in prayer. Bless you xx

  9. Alison, you are so typically brave to share. I hold you and your family in my thoughts and prayers. I read you are putting one foot in front of the other, breathing, and enjoying the simple things, using some of the best healing tools. I have been blessed by your work, and look forward to all the good that’s next for you and yours. May you feel God holding you close.

  10. Oh, sweet Alison, I have no words to add to the beautiful ones the lovely ladies here have shared…it is heart-wrenching to know you are facing such difficulty, such fear, such upsetting turmoil. I, as they, all hold you in our heart, tightly. We adore you, and will always be here for you, ready to help in any way we can. Know, this too shall pass…Much love.

  11. Please know that perimenopause is a bitch. The blood and the hormones. I was exhausted, and either in tears or raging uncontrollably for years. Get thee to a good doctor. Tell him/her everything – every little symptom – it feels good to reel them off, from minor to major… S/he will reassure you that this is perfectly natural, and that it will pass. Get a full blood test. Mine turned out to have almost zero vitamin D, among other things. I was offered hormones, but didn’t take them. The relief of learning that this is something we have to go through, and that it does end eventually, was the medicine I needed. You have been pregnant, and given birth. Do you remember all that hormonal crap? Even in a perfect world it would be appalling. When you have troubles on top, it feels unbearable. You are quite sane, and capable of living through this. Just know that your body is messing with you.
    Demand back the love and attention you have been giving to Ste, while you are going through this. Explain to him it is a biological process, and you need his nursing, just as you would if you had a major operation. He might feel he doesn’t have it in him right now, but nor did you, and you pulled it out of somewhere. It will do him good to get out of himself and focus on you for a while.
    This WILL pass.

    1. Oh and I forgot to mention the perimenopausal brainfog. Words WILL abandon you. You WILL forget so much. But that passes also. Just try not to make any major decisions while fogged…

      1. Janette, thank you for your wise words. They were not meant for me, but I take comfort in them, all the same.

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