Lavender Turkish Delight…
Some days stink. Some days I hang out washing and the heavens open just when I decide it will be dry and crisply fragranced enough to bring in and fold. Some days stink so bad I argue with my mum, have a little cry, pop painkillers for a pain in my shoulder that just won’t go away, worry about a bill, skid on a squashed grape (no really) and generally feel as though life may just be having a little joke at my expense.
It is on nights that like this one that my comfort drawer calls my name. Alison, it says, just give today up, and let tomorrow wash over you. Stop trying to squeeze a little more heartache and irritation and worry out of the day and just hang it out to dry. It’s just one bad day, and there will be thousands of lovely ones and when you are bone tired it is just fine to say enough.
So take a bath and light your candles. Put K.D.Lang on the iPad and sing along to Miss Chateleine. Sing as loud as you can. Let it all out. Then wrap yourself in your weeping
Write a letter to someone you are still doing your best to forgive and then tuck it back under the scented paper lining your drawer. Don’t think about it again. You have forgiven. It’s on paper now, it exists. Keep the lights low, the window open so a light breeze cools down what is left of this hot day. Take out photographs of your babies, of you much younger: remember who you used to be, how life used to feel. Kiss their little button noses. Read that poem that says what you can’t. Read it aloud. Pretend you wrote it: that those words came from deep inside. Wrap your arms in Mala beads and close your eyes just for a while. Press your face against that heart shaped lavender sachet and breathe lavender in and exhaustion out…
Sleeep Darling….x
Other Things To Do At BrocanteHome
Join the BrocanteHome Community
Discover my daily domestic to-do lists, join the conversation, read-along with the BrocanteHome bookclub and find exclusive Community only benefits inside.
Life Love & Vintage Housekeeping the by BrocantePrintables on Etsy
Create your own Brocante Life Book, plan Christmas, set up routines and rituals or live life the BrocanteHome way with my guided workbooks and planners.
It sometimes feels like we Lin twin lives! Yesterday was horrible! Jessica is generally an amazingly easy baby, but she screamed so much round town yesterday, I had to feed her3 times, and people stared at us like I was the worst mother in the world for not being able to make it better.
A kind lady pushed my pram and shopping to the checkout in one shop, while I carried the baby to try and sooth her.
I need to work on my comfort drawer!
I hope you have woken up to a better day…..
Xxx
Ps love the idea of a weeping blanket!
I too have someone to forgive and i am searching for answers it helps to know i am not all on my own X
I have a quilt that I call my “sick blanket”, that my grandmother hand sewed from small octagons cut out of clothing that my sister, parents and I wore when I was a little girl. It’s precious so I keep it folded in my armoire so I can see it every day but I only wrap up in it when I’m sad or feeling sick. It’s amazing how comforting it is to feel like my grandma is holding me herself. Sometimes you just need a soft, warm blanket wrapped around you.